Quiet, calm, and lonely are the words you can describe the environment around me right now. My family members decided to pay our friend a visit and I asked to stay home alone by myself. I am not scared or anything but I do wish for company somehow. Well, it was my own fault asking my family to leave without me but I needed to catch up on some homework. However, before I do so I want to discuss loneliness. What makes the heart feel lonely? Is it the constant ache that appears when there is no one beside you? Every time I feel lonely, my thoughts wander to a world where it's impossible to think about. A place where dreams do not exist, and guilt is your shadow. My brain receives a type of morphine that my body reacts to simultaneously. I can feel the numbness in my hands and the ache in my heart as I ponder about my mistakes and guilt. This feeling is too strong, too broad yet I can't stop thinking. It's as if my hands are tied but my legs are free and I can start running. This feeling on loneliness can go away if I try to do something about it but it's selfish. It's selfish to rid yourself of all the worries that will approach you sooner or later. Ironically, I pick sooner and time itself will not mend my pain. I am thinking and thinking, slowly melting away in my little corner thinking about all the worries. What to do, what to say, it's hard!!!
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Everyone feels lonely many time during their life. Sometime loneliness can relate to jealousy(just a small amount of jealousy). Sometime ppl that don't have a gf or bf, and was walking at a romantic place and they saw a cute couple walk by. That person tend to feel sad that he/she walking alone and feel very lonely. Or loneliness can be describe as pity for yourself. You see how your family or friend, etc having problem, you pity yourself that this happen to you and you can feel loneliness because other is having fun and you need to deal with this loneliness. I just want to say that loneliness have a different meaning in a certain place and certain time. The meaning change all the time depend on the situation and how you look at it. Most feeling that human feel all depend on the situation and that for loneliness, it not hard to feel lonely. Human do all the time like Adam, even God created all the animal and let Adam name it, he still get lonely and so God created Eve for him. Sometime it a burden for us to feel emotion but without it we aren't human.
Hmmmm wow Quoc has a very long comment so I will make my short.
I love to stay alone. It is like one of the best thing ever :D
I get to do whatever I want ~tehehe [playing my music super loud] so I wouldn't understand you xd
PS. I hate to visit people xD
Oh, wow, we are complete opposites Rachel. However what I meant was I was feeling lonely on the inside. I mean, physically, I love to be alone but yesterday I felt lonely.
~hmmmm yeah I really don't feel alone cause I am always occupied.
Oh then again I just feel bored xD
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