This blog is dedicated to all those who have had best best best friends but were forced to break up because of change. What I mean by the word change is that you either had to move or saw a side to your friends that you have never seen before. I experienced both of these issues in my life. Many of them involved me crying, screaming, or laughing because I would be reacquainted with them again very soon. 
Today while I was walking, I noticed one of my best best best friends from a long time ago. We were very close to each other and were practically sisters because our mothers were like peas in a pod when they were little. So, anyways a few years ago we had a nasty fight and were forced to break up. We were in middle school and she did something very terrible. Not only did she lie to my face, embarrass me in front of the whole school, and also pushed me. This last one wouldn't have hurt me as much if I hadn't fallen and scraped both my knees and elbows. Today, I saw her again!
What stabbed my heart was that she smiles towards my direction and I vacuously walked up to her. She had a posse around her and I did not care whether or not I would be ashamed in front of her "cool" friends. My heart was practically in my mouth. I mean this was the same girl who made eighth grade the worst year of my life and I was the one who was approaching her. I did not know what I was thinking. So, she looks at me and then all of a sudden turns around and walks the opposite direction. There I was, humiliated, embarrassed, disappointed, betrayed, hurt once again. All the memories and pain came back to me and I started to cry; tears that would not stop. Right then and there all of my pain from this week and many more all came back. I started to cry nonstop and felt like I would throw up. However, I am glad that I approached her and understood what kind of a friend she was deep down. All these years I regretted breaking up with her because of stupid reasons and now I really understood. It wasn't because of stupid reasons, it was because I couldn't believe such a friend or sister would ever treat me this way. I was blinded by the truth but today my tears made it possible to see again.
I mean I am not disappointed or anything but all I want to say is that friends come and go. Just like Friends and Seinfeld, they all had to break up some day soon when the show had its last season. That's how life is! Maybe my friend and I had our "last season".
6 comments:
Well I had a best friend to since like when I was in kindergraden till the beginning of fifth grade.
She had family reasons so she moved and I never seen her again. Till her visit once.
She wrote me one letter but I was still young then and was told by my mom that she will forget in just a matter of time when she had made new friends at her new school.
So I don't think I know how you feel when you are treated like that by a person you consider a friend, a sister, but it hurts when anyone you know treats you that way.
Till this day I don't if our friendship ever change are not :[
But it is a good thing now that you see clearly about her.
Thank you for your concern! I am glad you don't know how I feel because it is the worst feeling anybody can really go through.
I can understand how you feel, it has happened to me before. I has to move to America, my best friend turns her back and tell every secret I tell her to everyone. It hurt me, but what can I do, I just laugh and I think that it just happen, can't change it. However that does not stop me from trusting people, I have to laugh about myself. I also agree with what Rachel said.
Hey Lorita I totally agree with you that friends come and go. When I was in 4th grade me and my best friend got into an argument, over the stupidest thing, and that year we tried our best to avoid each other.
What sucked even more was that my other friends were also her friends. (I know realize what they were going through to see their some of their best friends in a fight. It sucks!!!!) Me and my friend ended up making up, but our relationship was never really as close as before. I think that same issue kind of kept on ringing in our brains that stopped us from being best friends forever. Now we're just friends.
My problem is a bit different than yours but the same issue of friendship comes in. Even tough me and my friend didn't permanently break up, I think that everyone once in a while gets in an fight with their friend. Now that I'm mature I know that sometimes they're just looking out for me.
I don't know what your friend did but you should just know that you now have trustworthy, and good friends. We're here for you can talk to us when you feel sad, or angry. I swear I'll try to help. So don't cry SMILE!! Don't think of your past, and about what people have said or done to you just look at the live that remains to be lived.
Sorry for the long respond! LOL
Thank you for your concern Dalvinder. It's so great to know that you have such kind and trustworthy friends. Thank you so much for all your symphathy and kindness. You have no idea how much it means to me.
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