Being in the Christmas mood

Today at my church, we were talking about donating toys to the children here in San Jose who are having a troubled Christmas day. I know that Christmas is all about being joyful and it's not about gifts but wouldn't it be great to see a smile on a child's face this Christmas? So, what my family decided to do was out of the ordinary but still very thoughtful. We decided to spend all our Christmas money on donating some toys and clothes to children this year. This has been our tradition every year for Christmas but this year it's going to be different. Since none of us really like the gifts we give to each other, we decided to buy whatever we want for ourself and for kids who are in troubled times. Which brings me to a very heartwarming story. Hey, have you noticed that every time I write my blog, there's a story that goes with it. Hmph, I have never thought it about before. Just a random thought.

So, anyways, I was walking through the store looking at some good presents for little kids that might be of use. Just browsing when all of a sudden I saw this beautiful doll that would be great for any child. I had bought the same doll for my cousin the year before and she had fallen in love with it. In fact, she is still playing with it; shocking, isn't it? As I was reaching out to the doll ahead of me, I saw a child who was pointing to the exact doll. She turned to her mother and said, "Mommy, can I please have this doll instead of the jacket." Her mom turned to her and said, "Darling, I don't have money for the doll; you need the jacket more. Maybe next Christmas." This just broke my heart into a million pieces. I just wanted to take the doll and buy it for the child more than anything. As I looked away to hide the tear welling up in my eye, I noticed that they were no longer there. Just disappeared into thin year! It's funny because I kept thinking that the child and the mother were a figment of my imagination. I looked through the whole store for them but there wasn't trace of the little child and her mother. However deep down inside, I knew this exact moment was taking place somewhere in the stores these days.

Much Appreciated!!!

So, this week was a very interesting week for me. I felt that I was going to leave this world a bit too soon. Not to bring anybody down or anything but I seriously thought that my life will come to end. Danielle, Emily, Jamie and many more thanked me for commenting on their blogs and I was so grateful for their hospitality. I just couldn't thank them enough for all their affectionate remarks. Thank you VERY much, Danielle. Thank you VERY much, Emily. And thank you VERY much, Jamie. 

So, anyways, I felt butterflies in my stomach and it was incredible to hear their sweet, angelic voices. A few days ago after their ravishing comments, my mom and I were getting ready to go to Downtown for an event. As I was walking down the street to the car, this car was accelerating his speed. I didn't know what was happening but everything just happened so fast. The next thing I knew I was sitting on the curb, my face in my lap. Apparently, the car was accelerating towards me and I just stood there. I thought that my life was ending right then and there and began to think about Jamie, Emily, and Danielle. I thought, "this is the end". However, the car stopped right in front of me and I felt so light-headed. 

That was so ironic yet funny. My mother is still laughing at me because she said that I acted so dramatic. It wasn't as if the car would run me over; he was just in the mood for the second. He was going to stop but that very thought scared the "you know what" out of me. 

Thank you, Danielle!

When I opened my blogspot, I did not expect my name to be written as the title of somebody else's blog. It was like a welcome gift that popped up and you did not want to close it. Danielle has written such a heart-warming blog that really touched my heart. So, I just want to take the time to thank her for being so kind and sweet. I really enjoy blogging because I get to read about my classmates and get to know them more. It's true that we might all be having the same classes the next two years. I never thought about it until Mr. Thompson pointed it out. It never occurred to me that we would be growing old together as a class, chanting our chants, listening to each other comments, and best of all being there for each other. During the rallys, there are always these hairs in the back of my neck that just seem to rise simultaneously and you really do enjoy the moment. I wonder what senior year would be when we all go our separate ways. However, it is not time to worry yet. 

So, again, thank you very much Danielle!

On a good note

So, my previous post was a very depressing post and I felt kind of bad about renewing everybody's pain. Now, I will try to make it up to you all by discussing one of my favorite activities. After a long hard day, I walk in my room and listen to one of my most beloved relaxation music. You have no idea how amazing this therapy is! To make the mood even more better, I listen to my music while I am taking a hot shower. I mean not only are you physically being healed from all this stress but also mentally. Usually, I take very hot showers and listen to my family complain about the decrease in hot water in the bathrooms but it's worth it. I feel rejuvenated and calm. However, this all comes back to me once I have left the shower and turned off the music but I am not going to ruin this moment. One of my pet peeves is having to take a shower at room temperature. I mean it just ruins your day and you feel like "blah" afterwards and makes you feel cold afterwards. However, taking hot showers and then climbing into your bed feels as if you have just entered a spa and are being treated like a celebrity. One of my favorite relaxation musics are beach, sleep, and rainforest. I love the different sounds effects that create such a vivid imagery. When I close my eyes, I can actually imagine myself in a rainforest watching a stream flowing through the woods and tickling my feet. Ahhh, my happy place!

Stress

So, right now stress is a huge huge huge weight on my shoulders and I hate this time of year where anxiety is overpowering our lives. There are so many essays and tests along with finals and activities being taking place. I am not tearing my hair out (though you may say that judging what happened in English when there was a hair fight. Good times). It's like sometimes I want to take a step back and just sleep through my problems for just a good amount of time. However as soon as I close my eyes, I can't sleep and when I can't sleep I think about all the different events taking place in my life and then insomnia kicks in. Along with stress, I have some family problems that just don't seem to get resolved. I know that I am not alone and there are countless classmates who are going through the same path. Every time I create a schedule to plan out the different activities taking place during the week, I always feel like I am missing something and then end up stressing out even more. I hope everything starts to calm down a bit after finals. Of course it will, winter break is fast approaching us! I think I can last just a couple more days until Christmas where all I will do is relax with my family in Modesto. My motivation for this week and the following is to study hard for the finals so I don't have to worry about doing horrible and then ruining my winter break. I think I can last a few more weeks. I mean how hard can it be? Oops, hope I don't jinx it for me and everybody else. 

Memories

This is a random question but do any of you have like a chest or a box that has all these memories from such a long time ago? I do and it sits on top of my bed rest in my bedroom. Every day I pass by it and can't help but glance in that direction and think about the treasures that I keep dear to myself. I hadn't opened in such a long time and decided to do so today. There were so many paraphernalia that I had saved, it seemed as if it was just yesterday I had received them. I have this dress from when I was about 2 years old and wanted to wear it. Of course, it didn't fit me but I decided to see how it would look anyways. I got only head through the neck hole and stood looking at myself. It's so funny how we grow so fast and change in a given amount of period. Even when you look at pictures in order to see how you have changed over the ears, you can't help but smile. "Was I that small" or "Was that cute?" I have this one picture of myself in my chest from when I was six-years-old and it just brings smiles to my face. From that little face, little hands, and little feet, you have grown into a blossoming new flower. I have not seen many of my classmates photographs of when they were little but you can perhaps surmise what they looked like. So small!

Greetings to you!

During the holidays, I like to send people cards but not the old-fashioned way. I love to use greetings.yahoo.com to send special greetings to my friends and family members. Sometimes they have amazing cards that really connect with the spirit of the holidays. Usually when you buy gifts for people, it's not exactly what they wanted or it isn't the right size. It kind of gets boring and you spend hours and hours trying to figure out what to buy for the perfect gift for your loved ones. However, a card sometimes says it all! My best friend is somebody who I have trusted, loved, and knew for such a long time. I send her a really sweet card that had a valuable lesson written in it and she was grateful. 

I am not saying that we shouldn't buy gifts at all for our loved ones but just on some occasions. If you feel as if you don't have any money or even no option of choosing a gift, an e-card (that's what they are called) is the right kind of gift. Your loved ones will really appreciate it. Plus, it's kind of fun to scroll down looking for "the perfect" card and you come across really hilarious ones. I love opening gifts and finding special treats for myself but I really wouldn't mind a thoughtful card once in a while.

Random comment: there is a lady bug on my window.